The world ends with you.
“LeAnne, I can’t do this anymore. I love you more then anything but you’re too over baring! Your controlling, I can’t even go out with my friends with out you having a fit. I dropped my social life, my friends, the things I love doing for you, and its still not enough! I just think..”
I stopped listening after that. I froze up with the first few sentences, they lasted forever. I had a knot in my stomach, my heart dropped and I couldn’t breathe. He was my everything; I tried so hard to be everything he ever wanted and now this? My eyes were swelling with tears, I could taste the streams of bitterness running down my skin.
He wasn’t the only one who sacrificed, I gave up my life so we could have our life. He was a part of me no matter what.
“LeAnne? Please say something. Why do you do this, you ALWAYS do this! This is it LeAnne.. Im gone.”
Everything was moving slowly, time was almost at a stop. What happened in seconds felt like decades. All I could do it stare at him, watch him walk out our door, our home, and leave me alone in this prison. My head was pounding, my brain felt like it was somehow suffocating and I just couldn’t hold back my tears. Everything was blurry when I stood up from that irritatingly itchy jungle green couch he picked, I hated that couch more then anything, but he loved it. When I stood up he was still walking to the door.
“Jason..” Nothing.
“Jason!” I yelled but he wouldn’t turn back to me, he was trying to walk out of my life forever.
“JASON! You can’t leave!” as I yelled that I grabbed the lamp we picked out together, and I smacked him on the head with it. He fell down with the biggest thud, and he didn’t move. He started to bleed and moan, I grabbed a scarf and I wrapped it around his head to stop the bleeding. I can’t let him leave me.
I dragged him to our bedroom. I pushed him up and set him on a chair from our dinning room. He hated these chairs but I didn’t think he would mind too much. I tied his arms and legs to the chair, when he woke I would tell him how much I love him, why he needs to stay, ill make him see ill make him understand.
His head was still bleeding when he woke up, but only a little. I was cleaning the mess in the living room when I heard him, I stood in front of him.
“Le..LeAnne? I can’t..everything blurry. I can’t move my arms, LeAnne??”
He started to look around at himself, realizing the chair and why he couldn’t move. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes, the same tears I had before.
“Jason. I had to do this don’t you see? You were going to leave me here alone, I couldn’t let you leave. I know you love me Jason! And you don’t leave people you love.”
I put my hand on his face and just stared into his deep blue eyes, they were the thing I loved most about him.
“LeAnne! Are you crazy! I’m bleeding! I need a fucking doctor!.. LeAnne please. Let me go, ill just go to the doctor and ill come back ok? I promise. Ok LeAnne?”
His eyes always looked adorable when he wanted something; he was like a puppy begging for a treat.
“I’m sorry Jason, but I can’t. You can’t be trusted, you already tried to leave me and I won’t let it happen. Don’t worry baby, ill take care of you, you don’t need a doctor, you’ll see soon all you need is me and my love. I love you Jason, why can’t that be enough? We could be so happy.”
He began to cry.
LeAnne!! Ill die without a doctor! I can’t stay here! Please! Please LeAnne!”
“Jason I can’t. Don’t you see?”
I put a piece of gray packing tape over his mouth, and I kissed it. It left the most perfect imprint of my red lipstick; he loved this color on me.
I Smiled.
“The world ends with you..”
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