Sky

A quiet and silenced sky lies over me, a cool breeze of rain to come rushes over me. Pulling my hair back, the wind leaves my face in an absolutely peaceful expression; In shock. As if I've opened my eyes for the very first time, all the colors swirl together. It's so beautiful and real, i'd swear it was fake. Just a dream. Look up at the sky, the way the clouds flow and dance above us, free to forever roam the world with their everlasting glory. Lay back and watch the world turn now, watch how the silk colors in the sky leave you behind in a blanket of diamonds. Stare, drink in the raw beauty of a silenced sky, embrace the world around you before it passes you by.

©HeyJude

Our Burning City

The cities burning
and blackening our skies
engulfing our lives
and no one sees
no one asks, why?
why oh why
do we not care if the world dies
do we not hear her pain
do we ignore her cries at night
turn our cheek to keep her problems out of sight?
Blind.
that's what we've become
smelling the smoke and then we run
we're done
we're killing her
and us at the same time.
we're careless
blind.

©HeyJude

The Kiss That Never Was

Slowly reaching midpoint, you grabbed my hand
you're warm.
your smell is comforting and voice inciting
your love is soft and tasteful, my ears are burning and my body's slowed down now.
Your holding me and i'm safe, I've never felt more comfortable then i am in your arms.
I could be here forever with you, just watching the world pass us by.
It's like were the only two existing now, i'd walk the world in search of you if i had to
i'd never give up.
your kiss is what lets my night become day, the kiss that never was has always been.

©HeyJude

Death Has His Ways

Death Has His Ways

By Ariel Perez

No one ever figured that I, the supposed soulless creature I am, could ever want, need, feel or even love. I live vicariously through my many victims, going through and reliving each of their past moments like the chapters in a book, some too short, some long. I watch invisibly and try to feel what they throw away so easily, I try to feel alive, to feel something other then the nothingness that resides where a heart should be. It was a beautiful kind of torture, one that, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t resist. Their worlds were turning until I came in, I’d creep my way through the shadows that you carelessly over looked, I hid in the corners of your vision. I was the shadow you could have sworn was there a minute ago. And just when you turned a new corner in your life, whether you were ready or not, I’d rip you away from this world that you loved to hate.

And then come the inevitable questions.

“What dose it all mean? Why now? What did I do wrong? Why me.”

Why you? Because you’ve been gorging yourself on fast food since you could walk. You’re the one who broke into that bank and didn’t expect security to fight back. You are the hit and run drunk driver who ended up in a ditch.

That’s why.

I am the endless scourge of the earth, I am what people fear, loathe, hate and I am the end. It’s all just a matter of time for you, but time dose not exist for me. Only eternity exists, I have no end. I was before your earth and before your Gods that you tremble under so much. I am what everything eventually reaches in their existence. I am what lurks in the dark when you refuse to enter. I am the everlasting. And I am forever alone.

©HeyJude

Two Worlds Apart

Sometimes
i feel like i'm loosing my mind
the world feels like a fuzzy dream
it's something i cant reach
as if the world is some how going to fall away from me
i run
i sprint
i fly
i chase after that dream
heading for the sky, it floats away
i stare.
the world crumbles
it dismantles, and now there's no air
the sun disappears
all that i feel now is fear
i'm falling into forever
falling into the world
falling into my bed


©HeyJude

The Monsters Come Out At Night

The Monsters Come Out At Night

By Ariel Perez

            Every night he came home with an unchangeable anger in his heart and alcohol on his breathe. And every night I held my breath, pulled my cover up close and shut my eyes as tight as I possibly could. I hoped, and I prayed that tonight he wasn’t looking for someone to push around and blame for his troubles. He usually was.

            Jimmy wasn’t always like this, cruel, vindictive, and hurtful. He use to love me the way I still love him. Jimmy was the type of man who would bring me flowers for no reason, or would take me out to eat at a fancy restaurant on a whim. He was different now, something in him broke, and he changed into a monster. He changed into someone who blamed the world and the ones around him for his troubles. He was angry all of the time now, and no matter what I did to try to help, to try to make him happy, I was the target of his rage.

At first it wasn’t too bad. He would get mad at me for not cleaning the house to his expectations, or because the dinner I cooked for him wasn’t just right. He would always come out with, “it’s like you’re trying to piss me off Kate”. This was always followed by a shove or a slap. I didn’t think he really meant to hurt me at the time. I just thought he lost his temper sometimes.

I was wrong.

One night he came home around 3am, drunk and full of anger. He went into our kitchen looking for a hot dinner, but it had already gone past cold. I woke up to him dragging me out of our bed by my legs and down the stairs. I started screaming half way down, but he kicked me in my ribs and kept me quiet. He dragged me into the kitchen and told me to cook him dinner. I was scared of him, and I didn’t want to make him any madder so I started up the stove top. He got impatient and said that I was moving too slow, so he grabbed my hand and held it down on the red hot burner. I screamed, I cried, I begged and i cowered but he didn’t care. He went to bed and left me in agony on the floor with the stench of my burning skin in the air.

I should have left then, but my love for who he use to be, it was still there.

Hoping. Waiting.

I could hear him trudging up the stairs now, tonight felt like one of those nights. The kind of night where everything was my fault, and he had to let me know it.

He turned on the lights.

“Kate..Kate..” He shook me, trying to wake me up.

I looked up at him.

“Jimmy please, I’m tired, I want to sleep. Just come to bed and sleep with me”

-BAM- I could feel my cheek turning red from where he had just slapped me.

“DON’T, you ever tell me what to do, you bitch”

All I could do was stare up at him like the scared little mouse I was.

No. I can’t do this; I can’t stay here and let him pull me down into the black abyss where his rotting mind was already living. I have to leave now, it’s now or never. He was already creating a path of destruction and I was at the end of it. I was always the goal in his fits of rage, always the never ending target.

I made a run for our door but he grabbed me by my hair and yanked me down to the floor with him. I tried to fight back as best I could but he was thick, he was stronger then i was and he knew it.

He put me in a headlock and whispered, “Where do you think you’re going Kate? You’re mine, and ill never let you go”.

“Jimmy please!” it was all I managed to choke out before the started to tighten his brawny arm around my thin neck. I could feel my heart racing and my lungs aching to a breath of air. I started to scratch hard at his arm and he let go.

“You bitch! I give you everything and this is how you thank me?!”

I was gasping for air when he shot up and stood over me. He started to stomp and kick me as hard as he possibly could. I could feel my body bruising and my bones breaking under him.

“Help!! HELP! HE-“

He shoved his oversized boot on my neck, I couldn’t scream out a word and I couldn’t breathe. I stared up at him with my begging eyes, but he just stared back.

“Weak. Pathetic..” he said.

He got down on the floor, only to throw his big hands around my bruised neck. He sat down on my broken body and held his grip. Tighter, and tighter.

My tears felt warm on my face, and my body started to twitch.

“How could I ever be with someone like you Kate?”

“Ji-Jimmy, y-you’re breaking my h-heart..”

Then, everything went black.

©HeyJude

And So I Wait

And So I Wait

By Ariel Perez

I could look into her eyes for days, forever, and I know that every time she would break my restless, bleeding and ever trying heart. She would never know the truth that resides in my soul. She would never know my truth, the way I adored and craved every word that spilled from her thin pale lips. I would make her my world if she would just have me a part of hers, but to her we were bound by the fence of our friendship. I know that in my world, that god forsaken fence has been torn apart and done with, but in hers it existed for protection, as if she were waiting for a war to break out. She would be forever prepared. I was her lonely neighbor who peeked over that cold barrier every now and then to say “Hello, the world is not so bad, come out in the sun, give it a try”. Staring at her across our coffee table was always a bitter sweet challenge. She told me everything that ever came to her mind, she told me who she could not and would not trust but that I was one of the few. I’ve known this, I’ve always known this. With me she dose not struggle to rephrase what is spilling from her flooded mind, she’s not afraid to let me hear what’s going on inside her gated world, a world I envied to be a part of. We could talk for hours on end, when everyone else had gone to sleep in the world we were still up with cups in our hands and telling endless stories. She was an amazing creature. And though I loved her, loved our friendship it was a curse as well. Life was dangling water over the head of a dehydrated and delusional man. She was what I could never have, I was her safety zone, the one she confided things in and it killed a part of me. It tore at me and it raged inside my heart but this was what she needed, a good friend. I would always be there for her, until the end of time itself; I would be what she needs. She was a challenge that no man could win, when she spoke you could hear in her words that part of her was missing, broken, and she could not fix it. She wouldn’t let anyone near enough to even try. I wanted desperately to fix her world, but she would not let me near the broken part of her, I could tell the way her eyes went empty sometimes that it was too painful a subject. She was screaming silently in her mind but wanted no one to hear. This made my heart sink into the pits of my stomach, when I could not pull her away from drowning in the deep sea that was her mind. All I could do was change the subject, make her laugh and hope that it somehow brightened up her day, just for a few moments. I hoped that one day she would give me a chance to save her, to change her world for the better. Until then I would be here listening to her every word, it was always more sweet then bitter. My heart was scared and sore but it could take the lashings, and so I wait for a chance, a hope that some where in her world for one that there would be room for another.

©HeyJude